Dear Shona,
I still remember that night, i was lying on the beach and you were sitting next to me. I wanted to be alone and thats why i moved away from others. Nobody bothered, some didn't notice others didn't care but u came and sat next to me. u refused to go and i even told u forcefully to go. I remember talking to my mom in same manner when she doesn't listen to me in first instance.
You sat there till i finally started feeling better, I felt protected and shielded , i dont know from what but i felt same lying next to you.
We started walking, you told me whenever you are sad u look up-to the stars and find your solution. I though why is this girl caring for me so much, but that gave me enough reason to be happy for some time. U suggested that i should look up the sky whenever i am sad. I tried to convince you that you were mistaken and i was not actually sad.
The next day was 30th night. I was sad, you know the reason. I found myself alone. I was drunk and then in that weak and drunken state i found myself looking up-to starts, waiting for my answer. i cursed god for putting me in such a situation and asked him am i alone in this land away from land. He must have smiled at me and felt petty on my foolishness as i did not realize i was not away from home, my home was few feets apart and it was me who didn't realize it.
I am sorry Ammi.
today, on 20th october, i have relived those 15 minutes on beach when u sat next to me and then when u told me about looking to starts. I have tried my best to alter history and found myself hugging u on that beach in that night in some alternate reality. i can still feel your warmth sitting next to me and giving me life when i needed it the most.
One more moment i relived today repeatedly, was when we were standing on the steps of ARC bar just after new year's countdown. When Jimmy , loose and asmita were lost and bansal went to search for them. You remember i was holding you from behind and truing to protect you from the mad, rushing, nude crowd all around us. I saw u getting uncomfortable and found myself inclined to take you out of that place, the place which we all though we will enjoy.
Its the people and not the place that is required for being happy.
I have relived these two moments over and over again today, the first one makes me feel protected and second one makes me feel protective.
I feel happy shona, and you are the reason. I hope i can be the cause of your happiness, each day to follow in your life.
(if you look closely this was the pool in night of new year. on the top left corner of this pic there were stairs and i got u back from there)
